aku berhenti berharap

mungkin kalian kaget kenapa aku tiba" berhenti..
lebih tepatnya mengalah,
aku cuma ga mau dia terbebani sama semua perasaanku..
aku cuma pengen dia bahagia, itu aja..
nggak ada salahnya dengan melepaskan..
toh aku tetap di sini kok..
nggak berenti nunggu :)

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salah kalau gw suka yg lebih muda?
salah kalau gw serius sama dia?
salah kalau gw mau nunggu dia walaupun dia suka sm yg laen ?

dia alasan gw bertahan ,
dia alasan gw single...
gw siap kecewa, gue terima konsekuensinya..
gw udah ready sejak awal dia bilang "i love you"..
dan ternyata bener dugaan gw , dia pergi sm yg laen ..
tapi gw bertahan ! gw ga nyerah gt aja..
masa bodo deh ,
gw tunggu sampai dia balik..
gw percaya dia balik , oneday :D

if you're not the one - Daniel B

If your not the one then why does my soul feel glad today?
If your not the one then why does my hand fit yours this way?
If you are not mine then why does your heart return my call?
If you are not mine would I have the strength to stand at all?

I never know what the future brings, but I know your here with me now.
We'll make it through and I hope you are the one I share my life with.

I don't wanna run away but I can't take it, I don't understand.
If I'm not made for you then why does my heart tell me that I am?
Is there anyway that I can stay in your arms?

If I don't need you then why am I crying on my bed?
If I don't need you then why does your name resound in my head?
If your not for me then why does this distance maim my life?
If your not for me then why do I dream of you as my wife?

I don't know why you're so far away but I know that this much is true.
We'll make it through and I hope you are the one I share my life with.
And I wish that you could be the one I die with.
And I pray that you're the one I build my home with.
I hope I love you all my life.

I don't wanna run away but I can't take it, I don't understand.
If I'm not made for you then why does my heart tell me that I am?
Is there anyway that I can stay in your arms?

'Cause I miss you, body and soul so strong that it takes my breath away.
And I breathe you into my heart and pray for the strength to stand today.
'Cause I love you, whether its wrong or right and though I can't be with you tonight, you know my heart is by your side.

I don't wanna run away but I can't take it, I don't understand.
If I'm not made for you then why does my heart tell me that I am?
Is there anyway that I can stay in your arms?

When you love someone

when you love someone,
everything seems beautiful,
when you love someone,
all the words i speak like a romantic quotes,
when you love someone,
i don't care about others,
only you in my mind...

"loving you but it's not so easy,
to make you stay with me" endah and resha

when you love someone,
sometimes i don't care about your worst things,
i just care for your good things,
i don't care about your past,
i just care about your future with me...

and now i'm falling so deep cause loving you,
do you feel the same with me ? :(

YOU ☺

aku terkenal cewe yang suka ganti-ganti pacar , semua orang selalu beranggapan buruk tentang aku.. sampai suatu hari aku ketemu sama adek kelas cowo yang ngubah semuanya.. namanya RG, dia anak perantauan dari Samarinda dan dia tinggal di asrama sekolah..
awalnya dia cuma sebatas temen chat di blackberry messanger .. anaknya asik, dia juga nggak kaya cowo lain yg suka gombal murahan..
saat itu aku putus sama pacarku, dan aku sempat deket sama temen RG , namanya RMH..
tapi itu smua berjalan cepet, nggak tau kenapa aku menghindar dr RMH..
jadi aku cuma deket sama RG, kita sering bagi cerita bareng, tiap pulang sekolah kita selalu pergi ke kelas dia dan mulai cerita"..
waktu itu hari minggu, kita sama-sama kesepian akhirnya kita cabut nonton..
kita milih nonton transformers 3 , kebetulan baru keluar filmnya..
selama nonton kita sering bercanda sampai-sampai nggak niat nonton :D
hahahaha..

selesai nonton aku memilih buat makan dulu soalnya aku memang laper banget, dan dia juga mau nemenin aku..
awalnya sih kita nggak niat pulang bareng, cuma karna jarak rumahku deket dr mall itu,
jadi dia milih nganterin aku..
kita jalan berdua sore-sore , dia juga sempat masuk rumah..
selama itu aku masih nganggap dia temen deket, dia pun juga..
setelah kejadian itu kita juga semakin sering pulang sekolah ketemuan..
hubungan kita jadi semakin deket, tanpa ada orang yang tau kecuali temenku namanya Ayu and Sinta..

kita jadi sering chat terus-terusan, kita juga punya julukan masing-masing:
pipao-pipi bakpao dan kulek-kurus jelek
dia juga smpat bilang sayang dan dia janji bakal tetep deket
tapi, semua nggak mulus jalannya...
dia sempat jauh dari aku, tapi karna aku berusaha akhirnya kita deket lagi..
begitu berulang-ulang..

tanpa aku sadari aku sayang sama dia,
dan walaupun tanpa ada status yang pasti..

aku nggak pernah segigih ini buat nunggu cowok, aku nggak pernah rela single sebelumnya demi cowok. dia bener-bener ngubah semua..
dia buat aku ngerti gimana susahnya menunggu, bertahan , dan sakit hati...

dia akhir-akhir ini mulai mengungkit masa lalunya , dan aku emang ga punya hak untuk melarang..
aku cuma bisa nunggu dan bertahan ,
dan aku masih ingat dia bilang
"kamu sabar aja, waktu itu ada kok buat kamu.."

dan sekarang aku tetap nunggu dia..
walaupun hanya bisa dari jauh,
i'm still fighting for your ♥


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